Song of Hope

They kill poets
in these parts
don’t they?
When I got here
I saw Walt Whitman’s
wizened head out back
impaled on a stake
flies buzzing round its
concomitant rot and stench
I heard one of the locals say
it was the worst kind of tourist trap
this voodoo orb
functioning like a magnet
drawing a swarm of zombies to brains
or moths to flames
take your pick
after all it’s America
And then I heard about the man
who wasn’t satisfied with Anne Sexton’s suicide
no he was still on her
constantly telling her ghost
to go to hell
and to consecrate his venom
he’d collect and burn all her poems
never realizing that Fahrenheit 451
was a myth
imagine trying to burn
pieces of the sun
with mortally wrung flames
I know they kill
poets in these parts
because the dismembered
remains of Allen Ginsberg
the man that Norman Mailer
once called the bravest four eyed kike
in the whole land
yes that man
scattered all over
screaming psych wards
and fallacious newprint
meant to stir the cauldron
of bloody bathwater
babies
and wives
and flybynight junkies
that went under
and never came back up
the final glubs
and so much more
resounding in the bardic echo
of Ginsberg’s howl
you know
that unkillable sound
with no fixed location
that lighted locust
of a drone
that you keep hearing
and hearing
beyond the wax
America are you listening?
I know for a fact
that they kill poets
in these parts
because that girl
who lived down the block from me
that girl who fashioned her silence
and trauma into a two-ton goddess
of love and redemption
yea her
you know the one I’m talking about
the nameless parishioner
of heart
who lives
and dwells
and breeds
and dreams
where words are funneled
through the eye of a storm
now do you remember
that’s the girl
the one you tried to kill
shame desecrate decimate
the list of offenses
goes on and on
and we regret to inform you
that your assasination attempts
will continue to meet failure
because you see
poets
in those most vital parts
from which songs of fury
innocence and hope arise
cannot be killed off
so you misewell
lay down your arms
and find out what Beauty
immortal to the touch
might be offering in exchange
for love
and praise.
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As You Desire

cindy 71
Free from staid context,
and the fragile lull of fate,
she had come a long
unmapped
way to create
a new set of illusions
by which to set
and frame her course.

 

(Photo by Cindy Sherman)
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Gone Again

cindy and trees
Under a sunstreaked tree,
rough bark against skin,
texture of a stolen kiss—
She was touched,
and saddened too,
that these days
it was her ghost
who did most of her living
for her,
amidst the brackish ebb
and flow
of memories pooling
to tease
and deprive.

 

(Photo by Cindy Sherman)
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The Mission

cindy 68
There were places she hadn’t been,
wilds within that had escaped
her gravely silent stalking.
A fuse had been lit.
Concentration was required.
And stillness.
The kind of stillness
that would bring her face to face
with the deeply unremembered aspects
of a self sacrificed
to the god of lost seasons.

 

(Photo by Cindy Sherman)
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Neo-Realism

cindy 90
There was something about a white telephone,
unringing, that made her think of tightly wound
spirals of cigarette-smoke in Italian films,
or poorly lit hotel rooms
where actresses played to the pall
of their silence and wanting.
Any moment now, any moment,
a director would call cut
and put an end to this nightmarish scene
which was beginning to take itself, or her,
a little too seriously.

 

(Photo by Cindy Sherman)
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Want Ad

cindy in the city
After one year,
one month, and two days,
what she called
her unsentimental education,
she understood
the city to be both
a cryptic boneyard
and high-rise projection
which excluded her
from any real contact.
God, how she loved
holding it all up to the light,
with herself as the detachable centerpiece
constellated to desire.

 

(Photo by Cindy Sherman)

 

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Welcome to the Terrordome

cindy 92
She remembered how her friend used to say fear was an acronym for
False Evidence Appearing Real.
Another one she had come across—
Fuck Everything and Run.
She was, at present, beyond the scope and warrant of both acronyms.
Real and unreal no longer mattered; running was no longer an option.
The truth moved toward her very simply, with a sweetly fatal air
of almost solemn grace, and the sense of screamless terror which had collected
at the base of her spine since she was a child
stalked its way up to her brain,
where she was forced to watch
the softly flickering projection
of the girl on the screen
who could have been,
or perhaps was,
her twin.

 

(Photo by Cindy Sherman)
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Icarus, Remixed

I was Icarus
with double-edged wings
once upon a time.
The dreamer’s big eyes,
full of flames and longing,
the impetuous nature,
the jazz of my soaring,
all of it
defined me
as the blaring antithesis
to my dad’s son-proofed
set of lockbox rules.
But I got into the groove, boy,
you know I did,
and I gleefully sacrificed my youth
to the incandescent god of cosmic disco
and crapshoots, the one that feeds voraciously
on the hustling of the young, on the ripening
vocabulary of their roots, and living lexicon.
As the legend goes,
I was gobbled up
and spit back into the sea
as singed feathers
and unfulfilled dreams.
My memories, or rather want of memories,
became gurgling pods of sea-foam,
and I became a rote eulogy
on the collective lips
of a conscripted pantheon.
Despite the way
in which it’s been told,
the residual gist of my legend,
there is no moral to be drawn
from my story,
not really.
The moral
is the afterthought,
the wearied tack-on,
it is my father’s noble, outstretched hand
still trying to reach me,
to hold me.
I guess what I’m trying to say is–
I was Icarus
with double-edged wings
once upon a time,
and the claims of my legend
were shaped by a Sun
that deals in fate and destiny,
not meanings,
and I, the boy formerly known as Icarus,
have gotten to live a hundred thousand lives
as a star in a show with a variable script,
and no apparent ending.

 

icarus 2

 

(Image by Henri Matisse)
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In Praise of Ryokan

ryokan
The moon,
melting liquid
frost onto my window,
slips through my fingers,
as I recall
that legendary jewel thief
who once pulled off
an impossible heist,
which, to this day,
the right kind of fools,
lovers and lunatics,
constellate their larceny
and longing by.
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Gusty Winds May Exist

Gusty Winds May Exist. This was the sign I saw on the highway when driving back from Albuquerque. Gusty Winds May Exist. Which, speculatively insinuates, they may also not exist. A climate conundrum and barometric riddle to challenge everything you thought you knew about wind, particularly wind which falls under the classification of “gusty.” Bigfoot, the Lochness Monster, Santa Claus, gusty winds–all these potentialties straddling the line between reality and illusion, what is and what isn’t, make my brain bust into a happy breakdance. “There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio/Than are dreamt of in your philosophy.” Marvelous words from M.C. Willy Shakes, who may or may not himself have existed.
Anyways, to hop-skip over to someone who has masterfully exceled at being there/not being there at the same time: Miss Cindy Sherman. I recently fell under the spell of her Untitled Film Stills, my crush on this body of work was instant and deep and moved me to no end. It was a magnetic resonance which demanded my honoring of and partcipation in that “world,” and so I wrote a series of poems, sixty-six in all, corresponding to Miss Sherman’s stills, what I’m tentatively calling Untitled Film Poems. To publish them without the accompanying images would feel diminished, and yet securing the rights to publishing them with the images may prove very difficult. That being said, I’m trying to get the work into Miss Sherman’s hands (though, she, the woman of a thousand faces backlit by a guarded anonymity), which will require a small miracle of its own (but I do believe in miracles, I do, I do!).

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