They
the fable-soaked
and sorrowful
children of the moon
engender shadows
if only to bootleg
the mercury of departure
to trespass lightly.
They
the fable-soaked
and sorrowful
children of the moon
engender shadows
if only to bootleg
the mercury of departure
to trespass lightly.
In the birthing solitude of invention,
memories night-bloom
as cosplay and eulogy
in the flickering séance of cinema,
keeping strange limitless company
to a rounded minimum.
Find me,
she urged,
in a bird-broken sky,
in mottled swills of ink
darkening my want—
Find me,
wherever I am not,
the explicit spreading
of distance
to tease and captivate
Memory’s cosplay
in a subtextual plot.
Memory,
eulogies birthed in reverse,
séance syncing soundly
the cinema of ghosts
with real-time revivals
rounding to fade.
In the bluest breath
of want
we are
ghosts haunting
our own lives
possessed by the mutable
shadows of cinema.
In the bluest breath of want,
pooling to unseemly levels,
making beggars of desire’s
taste for excess,
we run on
and on,
riveted to freight
and laboring conundrum.
In the longaching cinema of memory,
the gauzy calling and want of ghosts,
exponentially the veiled sum
of fading and pulse.
She, as in ghosts, as in white-hot incubi with a seductive glassy not there stare, it bewitches and allures, bears melancholy freighted with scraped knees and mirror shards. There is a lucid unblinking poise, calculated reserve composed of crystal and quartz, she is not quite there, many moons removed, where is she exactly, she seems to be locked in a liminal state, between here and not there, seems to be modeling departure in a frieze, subtext becomes her in long prevailing silences, an aria fugitive and disembodied, the frigid etiquette of melancholy, beneath it all, there is a bubbling well of emotion, you can sometimes feel it in the lava-eyed flickering firing over her eyes with glaze, she doesn’t just look through you, she removes and excavates parts of me, she clinically harpoons and scoops out aspects of your interior, like chunks of grapefruit speared by a serrated spoon, this is what happens when she looks through you … she moves through, and rearranges you in the process. It is clean-seeming and silent. She doesn’t just look through me, it is as if her look makes freight and casualty of me and takes me back, way way back, to additional histories, small hours and hidden worlds unheard of, wounded throbbing seasons, she plants ghosts in me, as one would a series of revelations, and punctuated by chill they grow into echoes and wants. I would, with this look staying inside me to look me over and smolder, become bride to a lasting haunt, wedding bells on a distant shore laced with waves crashing. It was a disaster, and flirting with disaster, and skirting disaster all in one. I was in love.
She, as in ghosts,
the seductive glassy not-there
stare
making you long for what has passed,
or is passing—
Séance,
persuasive in its call
and touch,
a cheat code flirting with disaster,
or remnants haunting thereafter.