In the waxing
syntax of throb,
pooling to unseemly levels,
making beggars of desire’s taste
for excess,
we run on
and on,
sentenced to the gravity
of a moon
going down
in honeyed rivet
on a sea’s lush
and glistening dark.
In the waxing
syntax of throb,
pooling to unseemly levels,
making beggars of desire’s taste
for excess,
we run on
and on,
sentenced to the gravity
of a moon
going down
in honeyed rivet
on a sea’s lush
and glistening dark.
At day’s glaring end,
the bough breaks,
the cradle falls,
the songbird returns,
and the dreamer watches it all,
idling mutely in neutral
to no end.
In bluest votive breath
I found her
wanting,
possessed of enormous capacity
to err on the side
of sheerest lengths
boldly lusted after.
In fables of solitude and memory
I have grieved softly,
sounding outlets through many courses
and channels carved.
Every escape the way back in
barred.
In other words
don’t confuse leaving with exits.
In this room,
a single-sourced cell and hive,
and cause to the effects
of mania and buzz,
an unlikely us was formed.
There is an aching at the heart of this.
A deep fissure widening ever inward.
Little sound, no fury.
Only the watery murmurs
and diminished echoes
of a room,
eseentially empathic,
tuning to a dialogue
between you
and who exactly?
Memory
as defiant neverland
where cryogeny is the norm
and no one ever grows up
only inward.
We bore into ourselves,
effects to the cause
of a rebellious tease
to be stripped.
In the gauzy rectum
of Memory,
perpetrating cosplay
in darkened rooms,
you encounter, in rounded turns,
a shadowed cast of masked strangers
and fools,
aligned to moving distances
closer,
and through which rare intimacy
is bred to conspire
and seduce.
Memory,
eulogies birthed
in reverse,
seance syncing soundly
the cinema of ghosts
with real-time revivals
rounding to fade.
She, as in ghosts,
as in white-hot incubi
with a seductive glassy
not there stare
that bewitches and allures,
bearing melancholy freighted
with scraped knees, mirror shards,
and broken nails caked and curlicued in dirt.
Locked in liminal groove,
she seems to be
modeling a departure in frieze,
seems to be subtextually grave
in her long sepulchral silences
and arias disembodied
with no middle ground
of which to speak.
She has seen through me.
Cleanly and clinically harpooning
chunks of interior
like pulpy grapefruit speared
by a serrated spoon–
I am at the mercy of this makeover
and time travel hearse,
taken way way back
to the elegy of small hours
unspoken
and hidden worlds
unheard of.
She, as in garden and allergy,
spreading virulent chills and rash.
It was disaster,
and flirting with disaster,
and skirting disaster all in one.
I was in love.
There’s something
wonderfully laughable
and bluntly paranthetical
about the ghosts that enclose
and become us
as if we were squatters
on vacation in fallout shelters
where rent is permanently waived
to make room for a speculative future
of sustainable haunting.