i
liked her best
wrapped in gloaming
and told her so
she smiled and said
i needed better metaphors
or lesser ones
if i hoped to undress her
where silence mattered most.
Every sentence
alleges an ending,
or feigns the solace of completion,
yet the wholly unsaid
caved under the tongues of lovers
becomes sacral content,
running on
and on
to no known climax,
only hunger
lingually revised.
Touch
as the residing magnetic
compass
and Braille for lovers
in a dark eyeless room,
or, the scale value
of myopic intimacy
through fucks graciously given.
Conundrum
to my common ache
and feted fevers,
place me under your tongue’s
secrets for safekeeping,
and the cherished prospect
of going down
like hard candy
in a throat closing
to darken the rent
of rapture from lush.
Her body,
a puzzling slate
and feral dominion
suspended erringly between
there and not,
and I,
tonal witness
to the intimacy
of her absence,
function by rounded turns
at a loss for words–
Silence,
the lasting grammar
of ruins
and longing.
Waxing blankly,
to soothe and mollify,
her hand (nails polished electric blue)
gagged my mouth (O-shaped in ache)
with a hint of phrase,
rouge to the touch,
and blatantly sheer in its
umentionables.
There’s something
blankly paranthetical
about the ghosts of memory
which become us
in breaths taken
to host
and devour.
In this season of longing,
the pluralized itch
and wraith
of you and I,
coursing parallel tracks
to cross imaginary lines
where distance mounts
the spreading horizon.
Everything always going on. People worry about everything not going on but what they’re really saying beneath the waves what they’re subliminally saying and worrying about is them not going on. Everything going on and them not. How to reconcile I not continuing I said and gone. If it feels like the world is ending it is because you are ending. Individual endings magnified to worlds ending. Autumn is a sonata. A soft lisping grave for lost hours. Fall falling is the sense you have when mortality grow magnificently yellow inside you a wistful flare and you ending becomes all ending everything ending. Every generation spells doom differently yet the same. One of the older meanings of apocalypse was revelation. We waiting to be revealed to ourselves as apocalypses unto ourselves. In the dust of lost blue hours we grow silent. As if practicing to be dead. Then we talk and come back to life and the cycle renews with us wondering about everything always going on and everything ending and what is there to do except cherish and bless.
Youth passes in fleeting doses, and doesn’t die a single death, youth as concept and cheat code disassembles into ghosts, into many ghosts which proliferate and spread, in pursuit of seances and possession. Youth, in its death, moves in many directions at once, it becomes a horde of hungry wanderers, a cadre of bottomless-feeding ghosts, youth, in its dying, screams for mirrors of any and all kinds to substantiate unverified crises, to metamorphosize them.