Wordless,
stripped bare,
trembling
is enough
to ask.
In the beginning was the Word.
And the Word grinned like a lascivious jackal, like a cruel scythe,
and we were seduced.
A votive placed in our niche spreading small light
as Word-symbol flashed before our illuminated eyes:
the darkened hollow in the nape of an apple,
which when translated becomes both kiss and lips.
Words started pairing and proliferating
meaning a multi-versal vocabulary of longing and ache
brought kiss to lips, knife to bark, shout to twist,
missive to scribe.
Words in captivity, and unqualified conviction, between you and I,
shrunk the gap of distances while blending pronouns
into something hybrid and unrecognizable.
We expand and widen by asking,
and by test-proofing drive-bys
authored by poetic license.
In other words, there have never been any words for this,
only clumsy sincere attempts and measures
meant to resemble words
or word-like drift.
Here, virtually placeless,
where little dreams
are the broken edges
of spidery raindrops
engraving a highway windshield,
I slide away from world,
an escapee,
a word waiting to happen
under the tongue
of someone else’s solvent pardon.
In the waxing
syntax of throb,
pooling to unseemly levels,
making beggars of desire’s taste
for excess,
we run on
and on,
sentenced to the gravity
of a moon
going down
in honeyed rivet
on a sea’s lush
and glistening dark.
At day’s glaring end,
the bough breaks,
the cradle falls,
the songbird returns,
and the dreamer watches it all,
idling mutely in neutral
to no end.
In bluest votive breath
I found her
wanting,
possessed of enormous capacity
to err on the side
of sheerest lengths
boldly lusted after.
In fables of solitude and memory
I have grieved softly,
sounding outlets through many courses
and channels carved.
Every escape the way back in
barred.
In other words
don’t confuse leaving with exits.
In this room,
a single-sourced cell and hive,
and cause to the effects
of mania and buzz,
an unlikely us was formed.
There is an aching at the heart of this.
A deep fissure widening ever inward.
Little sound, no fury.
Only the watery murmurs
and diminished echoes
of a room,
eseentially empathic,
tuning to a dialogue
between you
and who exactly?
Memory
as defiant neverland
where cryogeny is the norm
and no one ever grows up
only inward.
We bore into ourselves,
effects to the cause
of a rebellious tease
to be stripped.
In the gauzy rectum
of Memory,
perpetrating cosplay
in darkened rooms,
you encounter, in rounded turns,
a shadowed cast of masked strangers
and fools,
aligned to moving distances
closer,
and through which rare intimacy
is bred to conspire
and seduce.
Memory,
eulogies birthed
in reverse,
seance syncing soundly
the cinema of ghosts
with real-time revivals
rounding to fade.