Eavesdropping, at dream’s edge,
where memory pools to silver
and risk seeks its own level,
a new silence breathes like silk
upon my fool’s fate
to shed lightly, and cherish.
I became a bird,
just for a little while.
It wasn’t sorcery,
it was need, a whirling imperative
from or into the unknown,
or perhaps the broken skin
of a bared dream.
I became a bird
and flew up to gather clouds,
something in my tiny beating heart
compelled me to snip and collect
tufts of cloud and store them
in the sudden heart of winter,
or the balmy green crotch of summer,
it didn’t matter,
any season, as a storehouse, would do.
I pecked at clouds, scissored
my way through fibrous threads
of dream-spun cotton;
I collected with the savvy and hunger
of a living omen, a feathered portent,
and then I came back down to earth
and it was over.
I was human again.
All that was left as evidence
of my bird-life were several scattered feathers,
coarse black.
I picked one up
and used its inky edge
to scrawl a single word
on the singed pink of my forearm—
Rain.
I looked up at the sky, the clouds.
Waited. And waited.
The rain didn’t come,
at least not right away.
When it did, it was accompanied
by peals of thunder
and blonde veins of lightning.
Then, the rain, a torrential squall
pouring down upon my head,
my skin,
and the feather in my hand,
recalling with lucid vividness
the time I had become a bird
for a little while
and left behind my forlorn humanity
to gather clouds
and store them
in seasons yet to come.
The information is wrong,
or in drastic need of revision—
Do not stay strong,
but rather
bless your broken softly,
and dare to inherit strength
by its supplest means
and tenderest turns
toward the unknown,
calling.
The secret to becoming
a true revolutionary,
lay yourself
out upon
the world’s limitless altar
of secrets,
and praise
the hidden roots
of everything
you encounter
daily,
heart bared
as proof of light’s
need to air.
How to live
patiently, in praise
of mysterious drift, the questions
burning dark in your heart, stolen keys
fitted to foreign locks;
you, spy
and thief
to your own drama, holding shadows
to high standards, must abide
with fierce intent, and not seek meaning
or easy answers, but how to live,
with Grace as your witness,
at the center of an enigma.
Religion of rain,
I prayed to get wet, and then
entered her slowly.
I became a bird,
just to see about the clouds—
Rain, purling wet want.