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She remembered how her friend used to say fear was an acronym for
False Evidence Appearing Real.
Another one she had come across—
Fuck Everything and Run.
She was, at present, beyond the scope and warrant of both acronyms.
Real and unreal no longer mattered; running was no longer an option.
The truth moved toward her very simply, with a sweetly fatal air
of almost solemn grace, and the sense of screamless terror which had collected
at the base of her spine since she was a child
stalked its way up to her brain,
where she was forced to watch
the softly flickering projection
of the girl on the screen
who could have been,
or perhaps was,
her twin.

 

(Photo by Cindy Sherman)
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Icarus, Remixed

I was Icarus
with double-edged wings
once upon a time.
The dreamer’s big eyes,
full of flames and longing,
the impetuous nature,
the jazz of my soaring,
all of it
defined me
as the blaring antithesis
to my dad’s son-proofed
set of lockbox rules.
But I got into the groove, boy,
you know I did,
and I gleefully sacrificed my youth
to the incandescent god of cosmic disco
and crapshoots, the one that feeds voraciously
on the hustling of the young, on the ripening
vocabulary of their roots, and living lexicon.
As the legend goes,
I was gobbled up
and spit back into the sea
as singed feathers
and unfulfilled dreams.
My memories, or rather want of memories,
became gurgling pods of sea-foam,
and I became a rote eulogy
on the collective lips
of a conscripted pantheon.
Despite the way
in which it’s been told,
the residual gist of my legend,
there is no moral to be drawn
from my story,
not really.
The moral
is the afterthought,
the wearied tack-on,
it is my father’s noble, outstretched hand
still trying to reach me,
to hold me.
I guess what I’m trying to say is–
I was Icarus
with double-edged wings
once upon a time,
and the claims of my legend
were shaped by a Sun
that deals in fate and destiny,
not meanings,
and I, the boy formerly known as Icarus,
have gotten to live a hundred thousand lives
as a star in a show with a variable script,
and no apparent ending.

 

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(Image by Henri Matisse)
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In Praise of Ryokan

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The moon,
melting liquid
frost onto my window,
slips through my fingers,
as I recall
that legendary jewel thief
who once pulled off
an impossible heist,
which, to this day,
the right kind of fools,
lovers and lunatics,
constellate their larceny
and longing by.
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Gusty Winds May Exist

Gusty Winds May Exist. This was the sign I saw on the highway when driving back from Albuquerque. Gusty Winds May Exist. Which, speculatively insinuates, they may also not exist. A climate conundrum and barometric riddle to challenge everything you thought you knew about wind, particularly wind which falls under the classification of “gusty.” Bigfoot, the Lochness Monster, Santa Claus, gusty winds–all these potentialties straddling the line between reality and illusion, what is and what isn’t, make my brain bust into a happy breakdance. “There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio/Than are dreamt of in your philosophy.” Marvelous words from M.C. Willy Shakes, who may or may not himself have existed.
Anyways, to hop-skip over to someone who has masterfully exceled at being there/not being there at the same time: Miss Cindy Sherman. I recently fell under the spell of her Untitled Film Stills, my crush on this body of work was instant and deep and moved me to no end. It was a magnetic resonance which demanded my honoring of and partcipation in that “world,” and so I wrote a series of poems, sixty-six in all, corresponding to Miss Sherman’s stills, what I’m tentatively calling Untitled Film Poems. To publish them without the accompanying images would feel diminished, and yet securing the rights to publishing them with the images may prove very difficult. That being said, I’m trying to get the work into Miss Sherman’s hands (though, she, the woman of a thousand faces backlit by a guarded anonymity), which will require a small miracle of its own (but I do believe in miracles, I do, I do!).

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Pressure Cooker

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Sometimes
the last straw
was a torn grocery bag
while several cracked eggs
bled yolk onto the floor
and you heard his key
in the front door
and the blackening notion
that any one of the pans
would do the trick
any one
came on strong
and stronger still
when you heard him call out
Honey what’s for dinner?

 

(Photo by Cindy Sherman)
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Room to Spare

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At a lighted remove,
she coerces solitude
into a tender rapport
with her barest haunt.

 

(Photo by Cindy Sherman)
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Looking Without

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The simplest means
to revelation,
and perhaps revolution,
was to stay away
from mirrors
and the masks
which justified
their glaring reproof.

 

(Photo by Cindy Sherman)
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The Fountain

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Washington Square Park. From Anthony Distefano’s “city scene” series.

 

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New York Noir

Two more from Anthony Distefano’s “street scene” series.

 

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Light Becomes Her

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There was never
going to be
any show,
she knew that.
Yet she fed
on the light
to counteract
an unappeasable hunger,
to star
where the emptiness
reamed darkest.

 

(Photo by Cindy Sherman)
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