Kerouac

Kerouac whizzed and hummed. He lived with smoldering zest a crumbling highway within. He took to this unlighted highway, equal parts tour guide and lost little lamb, nuzzling a candle, believing that even the littlest light would make him brave, being brave was important, he was not brave, he was very brave, the pendelum hosted two faces, and rebellion was never far away. Perhaps bravery is brightly colored balloons we blow up, hold for a while, then bequeath to the sky. Jack tacked up pictures of himself as a legend in the quaint bedroom of his mind, childhood as a kingdom would prevail within, if not without … without meant a consortium of doubts which would slay, assail, scour. How to claim the first gold of one’s visions? How to ennoble lyrics as if blessed by right rain and river’s memory? Mystical concerns. Littleboy ambitions. A beggar’s opulent banquet, untouched as thin blue baroque smoke woven into edible cursive.

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Marguerite Duras

Marguerite Duras crowed about nothing. And nothingness. Lyrics like so much silky water threaded in the raptures of an eddy. Whirling, heady, intoxicating, a dizzying effect that spoke sheerest volumes about the secret history of love. Love for M.D. was hard water on a balmy summer’s day, crossing the Mekong in memory of crossing the Mekong once upon a time. The scent of eucalyptus. A ceiling fan wafting a pathetic breeze. Death in the early afternoon. Waiting. There was a lot of waiting in Duras. A lot of halted expectations, dashed hopes, and elliptical orbits. She circles—to move, to not go anywhere. Forward motion and progress are reviled, scorned, dismissed. She is the asthmatic schoolmarm from the tropics with a twist of acidic chagrin in her bald, bare-faced lessons.

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Beckett

Samuel Beckett plunged his head so far up his ass, daylight became a dream and conundrum. He saw the world through shit-filtered glasses, the bluest of roses manure-caked, anal cavity functioning as the base of inspiration, as the grimy pulpit and roost of rule. Beckett made singular art out of raging solipsism and gallows balm. The prostate became his tongue, the sphincter his lungs. No truce, no proof, he carried on. And on.

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No Dominion

Dark.

Lights up.

Piles of sand on stage. Reddish sand.

In some areas, the sand is piled high, forming mini-dunes. In other areas, thin flat layers.

Sticking out of the sand are shards of glass.

A woman lying on stage wakes up. Why hadn’t we noticed her before?

She is wet. Her long dark hair is plastered to her shoulders and back.

The woman looks around. Tries to get up. Her legs don’t work.

A voice projected loudly, as if through a metallic cylinder, from offstage: What do you mean her legs don’t work?

The woman ignores the voice. Start to crawl. Crawls here and there, inspecting the shards of glass projected glintingly from the piles of reddish sand. The woman picks up a handful of sand and lets it slip through her fingers.

The woman hears the sound of a far-off train. The whistling, the rumbling.

A young boy in a checked hunter’s cap enters. He marches forward militantly, with a sense of great purpose and conviction. Stops in front of the woman.

The woman opens her mouth to speak. Awful otherworldly screeching comes from her.

The woman places her hands over her ears.

The boy places his index finger archly over his lips.

Then the boy picks up a shard of glass, the one titled yesterday. Or tomorrow. From where you sit, much remains unlettered and inscrutable. The devil’s in the details.

The boy sits down next to the woman and slowly rotates the shard of glass, inspecting it with a judicious eye. After several rotations, the boy places the glass in his mouth.

The woman opens her mouth to shout, the awful loud screeching, hands over her ears.

The boy removes the glass from his mouth. Sets it down on the ground. Sifts through a pile of sand and collects shards, lining them up. He rearranges the sequential combinations of the shards until he is satisfied with a specific order, then gets up and leaves.

The woman stares at the glass-arranged pyramid shape the boy has left on stage.

The boy returns, camera in hand. He points the camera at the woman.

The woman turns away, hiding her face.

Metallic voice from offstage: She never said she would show you.

The boy lays the camera down on the stage and exits. Maybe skipping. Yes, let’s say skipping. The boy skips offstage.

The woman stares at the camera. She picks it up.

An old woman in a floral-print housedress comes out. She says—Not that again…will you put that thing away?

The woman doesn’t know how to react.

The old woman, in what they used to call a tizzy, snatches the camera from the woman, says—I’m going to hold this for you. If your father came home and saw you with this thing again.

The old woman shakes her head, and then exits in a perfectly straight line.

The woman manages, with great strenuous effort (and a little help from the audience, particularly the bald man in the third row, second seat from the aisle, who is practically willing her to stand up: clenched jaw, closed trembling fists, beet-red face, you can do it), to stand on her two legs.

Metallic voice offstage: Steady, now, steady.

One leg gives the woman more trouble than the other.

The woman trudges unevenly to different parts of the stage, inspects the sand its resident shards of glass.

Music. Riotously, percussive.

A child in a plastic monkey mask comes out. The child dances around wildly, arms and leg akimbo. Stops dancing and strikes a Herculean pose.

The woman goes over to the child.

Begins to lift the child’s mask from the bottom. Bright light spills out from under the mask.

The woman lets go of the mask. She slowly and theatrically backpedals to suspenseful music.

The child extends its hand. The hand is small and exceedingly pink. The woman doesn’t take the hand.

The woman doesn’t know what to do. Her eyes dance crazily in their sockets.

The woman picks up a shard of glass and thrusts it toward the child.

The child accepts the glass, inspects it, then tosses it aside. The child touches its mask, near the mouth. Then the child extends its hand toward the woman.

This time, the woman takes the hand.

Metallic voice offstage: There was something to be said for touch.

Another child comes out swimming. This child is wearing a dolphin mask. The child approaches the woman from behind.

The woman turns.

The dolphin child hands her a mask. It is an ibis mask. The woman puts it on.

Metallic voice offstage: And death shall have no dominion.

Percussive music returns.

All three masked figures begin dancing around wildly. Suddenly, the woman’s legs begin to falter. She drops to her knees.

Music stops.

Both masked children are whisked away, as if tethered to invisible strings.

The woman takes off the ibis mask.

Opens her mouth.

The awful screeching.

Hands over her ears.

Lowers onto her belly.

Spasms.

Stillness.

The older woman in the floral-print housedress returns, followed by the young boy in the checked hunter’s cap.

The boy, holding a camera, snaps several photos of the woman lying prostrate.

The older woman collects several shards of glass and then ceremonially places them on the woman’s back.

The older woman and the boy exit.

Stillness.

The sound of wind blowing.

Then the sound of a far-off train.

Rumbling.

Whistling.

Silence.

Fade to a different quality of dark from the one in which we started.

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A Man Walks Into

A man walks into a man. He realizes it’s the same man … they’re … the same man. They merge. Naturally. Inviolably. A man walks into a man and a merger occurs.

Who was I before I walked into myself? Can I walk out on myself? The merger feels permanent, irreversible.

This man, having walked into himself, now walks into a woman. Naturally, they merge. The woman wonders if the man has become her. The woman wonders if there are men now inside her, how many, etc. The man wonders if the woman has become him, how many women, do they have names, histories. Where does woman leave off from man and become woman, and what about my thoughts (the woman is thinking), are my thoughts my thoughts, are they man thoughts, are they many men thoughts? There is now a thorny gambit of beginnings and endings, crossed lines and blurred boundaries.

A man walks into a man … imitating a child. This is not unlike (the man child thinks) opening your mouth wide and swallowing an entire miniature circus, and the circus in its zeal and mania and kazoos and mirthful mayhem affects you from the inside in, the inside in down deep. You are now a man who hosts a circus, that circus being the childhood you swallowed, and some might say inadvertently. You were a man who walked into a man imitating a child and now you can kiss your business lunches and wingtips goodbye. Say hello to pie in the face and running willdy with scissors. Roll up your trousers and skin your knees and then go out and find a mother made of women who walked into mothers who will peroxide your scraped and dirty knees. Is that the destiny of men who walk into men imitating children?

A man walks into a bar. Ouch. The bar is metal. Unforgiving.

I need a different kind of bar, the man says, rubbing his impacted nose. Let me try again…

A man walks into a bar. The bar is filled with all kinds of men and women who are walking into each other, lost, searching, fevered for the right merger, the absolute one. If the man walks further into the bar, he will walk into becoming they, if he walks out of the bar, he will walk into staying himself, alone … for a little while. The man clearly understands that as long as men and women are walking, mergers of infinite varieties are inevitable.

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Welcome to the Monkey House

A man rattling the bars inside his cage that is the monkey house of writing and publishing, or, the holy seethe sounded in diminished chords and vinegar.

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Red Wedding Day

Hey, little sister, what is it you wish?

A nice day for a red wedding

A nice day to start again.

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Through a Screen Darkly

(A review of Lisa 2, v1.0, by Nicholas Rombes)

It begins in an irremediable present-tense, a limbo of cirrus and gray, in which the voice of a man, functioning out of narrative necessity, becomes spectral detective to the story of his family’s disintegration. Here, we begin again, the saccharine melody of Percy Faith’s “Theme from a Summer Place” playing, its innocence the honeyed veneer to a malovelently Lynchian underlay, as we cut to a family—husband and wife, David and Lisa, and their eight-year-old daughter, Marin—spending a summer-lovely vacation in rural Northern Michigan. The cottage at which they are staying, belonging to Lisa’s dead aunt, becomes the incubator for an existential nightmare, where his wife Lisa’s boxy doppelganger originates in Lisa 2, an old model Apple computer.

Resuscitating the relic from 1984, Lisa 1 (as David begins to think of his wife), begins writing her plays on Lisa 2, and David becomes aware of changes in her writing: darker, stranger, more overtly graphic. What most disturbs David: There is a different voice he is hearing, both on the page and in the “reality” of their interactions. It is not Lisa’s voice. Not the voice of his wife, the Lisa that he knows and is intimately acquainted with. She is becoming someone else, with physical, verbal and emotional changes underscoring this transformation, or “possession” as David sees it (Lisa 2 is implicated as demoniacal kin to H.A.L. from 2001). David’s interpretation of the situation opens the splintered gateway to a multi-layered novel which traffics in the mutable lore of memory and perceptual slants. How each one of us curates and caretakes our own reality based on fears, projections, predilections, desires. This is reinforced by the novel’s second narrative, in which we get Lisa’s point-of-view regarding what happened that summer and her husband’s disapperance.  

Stories emerge from the cracks and fissures, out of internal necessity, and in the case of David and Lisa, the story-behind-the-story (or perhaps parallel to or couched within) is that of a married couple drifting apart, as if their mutual orbit had subtly deviated from the planet around which their lives had been built and regulated. And their precocious daughter is caught in the middle of this sundering and crisis, which is made all the more heartbreaking when juxtaposed against the endangered moments of family tenderness and bonding that are sprinkled throughout. This includes the connection that David and Lisa have forged through films, a sort of second-hand love-language raised from shadow-play.

 Remixed hints of Bradbury, Black Mirror and Kafka subtly register, and the novel, in tone and essence, plays out new wavishly lo-fi, creating its own glitchy nostalgia in a liminal haunt. Unease low-humming in blank spaces, ghost-feed in the gaps, is what Rombes specializes in. What is not there creates a visceral and auditory spell, as this book demands to be heard as well as read. There is a line spoken by Fred Madison, the character played by Bill Pullman in David Lynch’s Lost Highway, a creed that could be applied to the unstable calculus of Lisa 2, v1.0: “I like to remember things my own way … not necessarily the way they happened.”

Memory, as flash-cards sequentially patterned to illustrate evidence, is not to be trusted, but memory as a breeding ground for fiction, is wildly fertile in its proliferations. In this respect, Rombes’s novel offers a deliciously twisted and amorphous voyage into hazardous waters, and on the phantom map detailing the dimensions of Lisa 2, the markings might read: Here there be mirrors, screening as monsters.

Lisa 2, v1.0, published by Calamari Archive, available here.

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The Bride at Jean Cocteau

Our experimental chamber film, The Bride, will have its Santa Fe debut, screening at the historic Jean Cocteau Cinema.

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Women Without Men

They grew breasts beyond compare. They grew breasts because they had to. Flat-chested, they weren’t considered manly enough. Grow some breasts, the administrative contingent would say. Grow some breasts and then maybe you can join us on the battlefield.

A very large gauntlet was thrown. Which precipitated breast-busting, molding, sculpting. The men underwent procedures. The men became breast-first men, chests puffed, chests inflated (some would say patriotically). They grew breasts and were saying, not in so many words—We are prepared to have cold steel bayonets plunged into our tender asking breasts, we are ready to have our chests punctured, to forfeit our lives for the sake of national debt, live theater, censored pride, grains of salt, whatever. Whatever.

The sloganeers coined slogans for the Breast Boys: Breast-Led Till Dead, or, God Breast America. The slogans worked. They seeped in like narcotic gnats. They boosted morale virally. Some of the men got lost fondling themselves. Others succumbed to the load-bearing weight of their redefined carriages. Yet the slogans kept sloganing, record-scratch echoes in hidden hallways. What you couldn’t do: wrap the dead bodies in slogans.

The bodies piled up, victims of bayonet plunges, chests deflated, perfectly engineered breasts gone to rot. Yet, despite the growing carnage and body count rise, men continued to grow breasty, with new slogans superseding the old ones—Put your breast foot forward, or, These nipples don’t run, on and on and on, slogans and jingles inspiring hordes of breast-endowed men, their manliness never a question yet always in question—busty, monumental, pillowy—these became catchword adjectives, and everywhere, everywhere the battlefields became premature burial grounds for scorched flowers and breast-led men laid to incalculable waste.

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