The offshoots
of roots
spread everywhere
under your feet.
They are the architectural tentacles
of a magnificent culture.
Ground there.
It is the tended prelude
to most solid
flight plans.
The offshoots
of roots
spread everywhere
under your feet.
They are the architectural tentacles
of a magnificent culture.
Ground there.
It is the tended prelude
to most solid
flight plans.
Building a rocket-ship
of a meditation chair,
low to the ground,
in my sawdust workshop
of a heart chamber,
so as to comfortably
leave my body
and astrally roam
with medicinal curiosity—
Oh, the places you’ll go!
There are some of us,
a strange lot,
who enjoy rolling around
in spools of text
and bathing
in wet ink—
for fun,
for pleasure.
It is not a recommended past-time,
but rather one that is born
from the necessity
of invention
as the supplest means
to vital connection.
To have an open dialogue
with the cosmos
through a sensitive antenna
of a flower
with lavender petals
crowning my head
was something I used to scoff at
or dismiss.
And now?
I am a gardener,
tilling seeds of moonlight
in the holiest lay of space,
or nature herself,
facing the sun
with a thousand shoots
merging across the divide
into one.
When Death showed up on a broken-down pony, I scoffed.
This, really?
What, Death said, looking around, unsure as to who or what I was referring.
You’re Death, right?
Yes.
THE Death?
You can check my I.D.
And you’ve come to collect me?
When it’s your time, it’s your time. Nothing personal.
I’m not upset about that . . . it’s just . . . look at what you rode in on.
Death dismounted his pony and gave it the once-over.
Yes?
A pony? And not just any pony but a broken-down one that looks like, like . . . well, like this!
Death was perplexed.
What’s wrong with this pony?
Death slapped the pony on the rump. The pony let out a sound that was half-cough, half-snort.
I filed through a laundry list of all the things that qualified the pony as “broken-down,” and when I was done, Death laughed, thin and metallic, the teeth of a comb scraping aluminum.
This is about you, isn’t it?
Me?
Yes. You. And your ego. You feel that Death, your death, deserves more of a ceremonious farewell, that Death should ride in on some mighty steed when coming to take you away. Am I right?
Well, now that you mention it, a mighty steed would be more suitable for someone of your . . . stature.
I think it is your stature, not mine, that is in question.
My stature?
That’s right. To be carried off by Death on a broken-down pony does not confirm the powerful and poetic exit you imagined for yourself.
Now hold on there, Death, you’re the one that came for me. I’d be happy to stay here and forego this powerful and poetic exit plan you imagine I’ve fantasized about.
Very well then.
Very well what?
Stay.
Stay?
Yes.
Just like that.
Just like that.
Let me get this straight—You, Death, rode in on a broken-down pony to carry me off, and then when I say I don’t want to go, you say, Fine, and that’s that.
That’s that.
Wow. Death is nothing like I thought it would be.
I work in mysterious ways.
Isn’t that God?
Death grinned a glowing skull-faced grin. It was equal parts comical and terrifying.
Well I guess … bye for now?
For now, yes.
Where you going next?
I have others to collect.
Will you be picking them up on that broken-down pony?
What broken-down pony?
I somehow had missed the part when Death’s broken-down pony had been transformed into a hobbyhorse with a frayed mane.
Death riding in on a hobbyhorse. This somehow made sense.
Through a gaping sleeve, Death’s skeletal hand emerged, waving goodbye, before he reared back on his hobbyhorse and rode away, kicking up trails of dust.
Okay, then. Review. Death had come for me on a broken-down pony, accepted my suggestion that I should remain among the living, and had galloped away on a hobby horse en route to collecting other poor souls.
I looked at the clock. It was still early. I wondered what the rest of the day would be like.
There are, the wizard explained, contracts with the invisible world. There are binding contracts. And ones that can be dissolved.
How can I tell the difference between one and another?
Listen.
Listen for what?
Listen.
For?
Listen for listening. Listen to listening. Listen to listen.
Do wizards always have to act daft and talk in riddles?
No. But it’s much more fun. And closer to the truth. The truth, you see, is a magnetic bone.
A magnetic bone?
A lightning rod.
A lightning rod?
You repeat a lot—
I re—oh, yes, yes, I see what you mean.
It is easy to get lulled into repetitive speaking when confronted by the abstract. It’s only natural.
So now what?
So, now, this.
Nowhere is now here—
A slight shift in perception
can change anything.
Where is the spellbook I was promised?
A) You were never promised a spellbook, nor a rose garden, and B) The spellbook exists inside of you. Every single spell you ever wanted to know, you already possess.
I’d like to believe that but—
Good, then clip that sentence and believe that. That is all. Do you believe you would be wiser if you had my beard?
Well, it is a very becoming a beard for a wizard.
I think so… (the wizard lovingly fondled his beard)
And I used to think … when I grow a real wizard’s beard, a long snowy winter forest of a beard, a sanctuary of a beard where small animals and birds could take refuge, a beard with some genuine magisterial and sagacious oomph, then, oh then, I will become a real wizard.
And?
And . . . my beard is many things. It is a magic carpet. It is a forest. It is winter’s mystique. It is a teller of tales. It speaks seventeen hundred languages fluently, and is also a mute. I glory in my beard, I do. And feel bonded to it. I benefit from its beardy wisdom, yet it is not me, it is not my wisdom. The beard and I . . . we’re friends, we’re partners. You could say we’re in alchemical cahoots.
You’re in alchemical cahoots…
You know, when someone says you could say . . . and then says something you could say . . . as in how I just said . . . You could say we’re in alchemical cahoots . . . you don’t have to say the thing that someone says you should say . . . capisce?
Uh, okay. I’m not familiar with, uhm, with these types of phrases, or, rules, or whatever.
Whatever, indeed! Okay, back to my story. Where was I?
You could say we were in alchemical cahoots.
Ah yes, me and my beard, in alchemical cahoots. The point I am trying to make, if I were trying to make a point—
Which you’re not—
Which I’m not, right . . . you don’t need a wizard’s beard. Same as you don’t need a spellbook. You don’t need any of these things. They are but tangible imprints of the legitimate metaphysical. What manifests is not the reality, not the real-reality, that is the echo, that is the . . . the emissary, the symbol, the totem, the whatever….
Whatever, indeed!
Hah-hah, now you’re getting it boy! But the real deal, the magnetic bone if you will, remember that? That exists in you fully and completely and is yours for the basking. And asking. Basking and asking. A rhymical one-two combo, eh? How come you’re not responding?
Oh, I thought that was one of those things . . . you know, like—You could say we’re in alchemical cahoots—when you told me not to say—You could say we’re in alchemical cahoots… I thought that question you asked, with eh at the end, was meant to be left alone, that further participation from me wasn’t required.
The wizard laughed. It was a round bowl of jellybeans topped with chocolate lava sauce, that was his laugh….
It made me feel happy inside. And kind of full.
It isn’t easy
to mend broken wings.
It takes time
and something else.
Ask any angel
you see
walking down the street
weighed down
by unspecified cargo,
or,
those that are
touring the backs of their brains
in search of Velcro explanations
while the midday winter sun
lends a blurry white pulse
to the seconds … moving …. slowly.
Or fast. Too fast,
and then a sudden wreck,
a crash course
on what it means to be
a human
who has forgotten
that they are an angel
waiting to reclaim themselves
as straight up holy,
no savior
or guru required—
it becomes,
whether under
a winter or summer sun,
whether under a cherry moon
ripe for plucking,
or a golden one
chastening lovers rosy touches,
it becomes
a matter of found memory,
and mending—
not easy
when there are no feathers to trace,
no flights from Point A to Z
to verify unfettered
aerodynamics as real—
not at all
easy
when life, reasoned as the Demon Barber
from Seville,
has executed so much serious snipping
and brutal shearing
and you are left
mirrorstruck and heartlocked
twisting in the wind
burning up inside
questioning why why why—
no
it isn’t easy
to mend broken wings,
and understand that there are many
who cannot abide
or condone or support a healing
so foreign to their clockwork faculties—
even the mention of wings might drive them
into a fit of despair
masquerading as decency or common sense—
but know
that there are those
who have slipped outside of time
to notice the thin blue needle and invisible thread
working together
to stich marvelous
purls of symmetry
into dream-time currency
irresistible to the core.
Every utterance,
meat
and bone
in a mutable feast,
in which you,
as chef and patron alike,
come to understand
the nature of appetite
in relation
to words
seasoned for
infinite digestion.
Mystery
can only be expressed
through Mystery–
its reflection
that of a feather
casting a shadow
upon a wind
that holds forever
in the lightest regard.