Manna

Do not say the thing that is easily said. Say the other, say the nothing, say the silence, say the unsayable, and save yourself (sort of) through the saying. Gold dust wafts down like filigreed motes from a rain-swollen ceiling. You breathe in gold dust and wonder about the Dream Inn that talked to Patti Smith, you wonder if Patti Smith’s Dream Inn is connected to Haruki Murakami’s Dolphin Hotel. A multitude of hotels and motels that exist as way stations for dreaming and liminal grooves. They are everywhere. It is a matter of psychic recognition, of subtle attunement. Word by word, you construct a self. The ghost of Patti Smith walks side by side with the living Patti Smith. This is how the writer lives side by side with herself. Surveillance is 24-7, it is a stalker’s game, you track where you are and where you are not simultaneously, an existential simulcast, a sideshow creeping. Patti Smith is a collector. The patina of time has engraved itself on many of her possessions, her keepsakes, her amulets. Longing, she moves through a tangled net and marginal haunt of memories, commiserating with ghosts and their daily bread from which she draws sustenance to keep living, to keep writing.

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Scraps

Each one of us are curating our own reality, our own collections.

Philosophy is a crooked thumb trying to hitch a lift to the stars.

I listen to the wind sing, but can’t understand the words. The No Trespassing sign posted on the wooden fence bordered my apartment complex was no longer securely fastened and I heard it rattling and creaking as the wind blew. I know several people who can translate wind. I haven’t seen any of them in a while.

The silence in a snowy landscape informs you, in no uncertain terms, that God is listening.

I have often recalled, and I have often dreamed, and everything else feels like excess.

A story is simply the means by which a voice knows itself speaking, and other voices speaking listening in time.

Other voices speaking listening to other voices speaking listening is the bread and butter of storytelling, its mother node and simulcast nature.

There are visions everywhere voicing themselves. And the same is true in reverse.

Mom that seems to be everywhere all at once: Momnipresent.

Mom that seems to know everything you are doing always: Momnisicent.

I have always depended on the kindness of solitude to warmly acquaint me with words.

There are sentences I have yet to meet. I wonder if we’ll hit it off.

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Because the Night

Half-punk-scarecrow, half-mystic-urchin, Patti Smith seems to exist on the yellowed edges of saudade: the time-carved café table, the books she carried with her on her trips (as trusted and beloved companions), the way she packs light like The Fool, her removed and impassive muteness that speaks volumes and finds itself siphoned through lyrical impulse. This is not remembering—this is collaging an identity together piece by piece. Her imagined self is membered and constructed through stories, lore, and innate mythologizing. She traffics in archetypes, myths and legends, much in the same way that Dylan does. They are most at home on the borderline of mythology, legend, fable. She, like Dylan, is portal-jumper, a vagrant with a mystical twitch. Patti Smith is forever wandering in the zoneless geography of mind, in a self-regulated universe, or monoverse. Words are the ghostly calls of a linger and haunt, a dreamer’s dreams cased and corked in trembling lyrics, a never-ending negotiation between the outer and inner. Found wanting, found dreaming, found losing, found sounding off about the self as it is dissected in thin air, in the interstices between vanishing and emergence. Half-punk-scarecrow, half-mystic urchin, the pilgrimage is the thing, as the mind functions in conjunction with imagination as both correspondent and vice. Vision being the greatest narcotic of all. We can overdose on vision without moving an inch.

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Book Launch

Video clip from Last Furies book launch (10/9/25)

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Kid in a Western

He could feel his hand, an undertaker’s apprentice, rosy rash pecking out a tremolo in the palm’s moist center, a fluttery pulse, as his fingers massaged the handle. His fingers ever sensitive to the crushed pollen coating the handle (time and the stranger disagreed in that time stood still while the stranger slowly approached), no, he wasn’t going to pull out his gun and perform some theatrical twirling, some show of ostentation just to justify legend … this time it would be level and direct, the vocabulary of precision: he’d shoot down the stranger point-blank. The stranger was approaching him with the wrong kind of attitude, a sneer that could be psychically sniffed out from a mile away: a broad-chested fugue in a tall hat slowly clarifying and coming into focus (for a moment he imagined he might experience one of those psychic reversals, or existential plot twists, where the stranger turned out to be none other than himself, and mythology and psychology and every other ology would come into play in this desirous motive to shoot down his shadow-self, but no, the man didn’t look like him at all, thank god). He’d generously allow the stranger several more steps, and then the gun, as an engaged extension of his body would reveal itself to the cinematic air, the imaginary X already sketched out on the broad chest, his index finger functioning as a lone operative, folding inward as the knuckle jutted … he’d done it before, so simple, it would always come easy, it was a motion executed like so many other rote and customary motions, a gesture born of rehearsed facility (legend claimed that the earliest rehearsals took place in the adventure of his crib): the raising of a glass, the tying of boot-laces, the petting of a cat. He saw the narrative unfold in a hyper-accelerated time-lapse, hints of fast-track cinema: the gun drawn, the bullet through the painted X, and he standing over the stranger’s body with victorious disdain and little to no regard for consequences or anything near to remorse. Now all he had to do was step into the frame and vision, and both act and direct in the real-time continuity of lore and evolving myth. In the distance, far off, he could hear a train whistle, and his mother calling him home for dinner.  

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Sepia

Nostalgia is a death-trap, eating its own tail and leading nowhere. Nostalgia copulates with ghosts in dusty storage rooms and snakelike corridors. Now and again and again now never is nostalgia’s recipe and calling card. Nostalgia is the last picture show revived endlessly, a cinematic séance in rose-light and sepia. You whisper to nostalgia as you would a shy tender lover concealed in a shadowy niche. Nostalgia is the idea of things dismembered into snippets of intoxicating celluloid, strips dancing and teasing bewitchment and allure.

How to merge, marry, superimpose archival fragments onto your own presence and narrative in real-time? What is real-time? Was it real-time when I wrote real-time seconds ago, but now real-time is gone, and back again, as I am writing this (in real-time). Real-time never goes anywhere. It follows the irrefutable principle of orbit. Around and around but never going anywhere except around and around. It never fades or disappears. Real-time is the common nomenclature for eternity. Real-time is eternity’s signature and claim in digestible terms. Real-time is folk in its bones and surname. Seek deeper, dig deeper, and you will find eternity mirroring real-time, or hiding out in its domain. Eternity is a blank slate disguised as real-time.

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Way Station

I walked to the train station at night. I was going to drive. It was a hot day, I had already been out walking in the sun, and I thought—just drive to the train station. But when it was time to go, I decided to hoof it. I knew that I would regret driving there, and not feeling my feet on the earth, not being connected to the streets, not absorbing at a pedestrian’s pace. The pedestrian’s pace was equivalent to writing longhand. Walking was the longhand of transportation. It took me about a half hour to get there. At the station, only a gray-haired man with a guitar, sitting on a bench outside the visitor’s center. The man was softly strumming his guitar, gently plucking bluesy notes, almost as if he were shyly practicing his playing where there was no audience. Either that, or he had a lover’s fingers, making sure his touches registered subtly and tenderly, delicate hints preferred to bold statements. The man left after about fifteen minutes. Now the station was empty. Just me and the legacy of the tracks. Railroad America, and its industrial modeling of eternity, its abbreviated span of endlessness. I called to mind my friend Bear, a road dog through and through—weary, hopeful, forlorn, incorrigibly romantic. Bear was now settled in Memphis. I found an iron railroad stake. I put it in my backpack. It seemed like the perfect thing to drive through a vampire’s heart. I hadn’t come across any vampires yet, but still…. You’ve got to trust in the little things you find along the way.

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Of Place and Haunt

It was a town caught in the thorny stasis between living and dying, between mortuary and chrysalis. I want to examine why it is I am drawn to places like this, why I always return to this specific feeling of haunt and desolation, want to make inquiries into the nature of my bent and predilection. I start by asking: do these places visually and externally correspond to a world within, to psychic zones and aspects of my interior? If extrapolated and perceivable as place, as geography, as topography—would it match the desolate, degenerate, eroded and scarred? Do these places call to mind, or call into being, a deep loneliness—am I finding my ghosts mirrored in the world without? I believe there are cities, towns, neighborhoods, locations that are our geographical alter-egos, or replicas of our inner world, of our emotional tonescape. There’s something about, a) Time as a silent assassin, with its efficient scalpel, b) Time as a hooded ninja that no one ever sees, c) the call to lonely places, d) we are ghosts in our own lives, e) what fades, remains, f) the allure of lore, g) there is crackly resin in the air that gives ephemera its due, h) nostalgia is a death trap, i) empty motel swimming pools contain secrets j) You think you are arriving in a certain town and quickly realize the town doesn’t exist, because, k) you have effaced that town with a town of your own narrative and imagining, you have prematurely buried one town and in its place superimposed another town over its bones, which leads to l) becoming a witness to a geography that is both mimic and delegate to one’s inner—to zero in on cracks, ruptures, fissures, and the music of geographical scars is to reflect oneself and through oneself the fractures detailing one’s interior.

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In th Shadow of Words

Photos courtesy of Paul O’ Connor, from last night’s book launch of The Last Furies.

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Gratitude Sale

Lost Telegram Press will be running a “gratitude” sale, as both the e-book and audio editions of The Last Furies (and their other books) are available at a 75% discount through Nov. 27.

Simply go to their website (losttelegrampress.ca) and apply the coupon code to your order: QYM9SBPS

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