I could write circles around him, Joe said, sipping his whiskey. Look at him, sitting there, Mr. Smug, Mr. Infallible. I should go over there and give him a good what-for.
He’d knock your block off, Bob responded matter-of-factly, sipping his brandy.
I could take him—
He’d knock your block off—
I could write circles around him, circles and—
Your block would be knocked right off, doomp, there goes your block—
It was a matter of helium-speak, and tomorrow-talk, and bright ribbons of noise amounting to nothing.
We, hanging out on the street-corner, conducting ping-pong volleys and raps, ferocity and verve, building ourselves up—who we were and were not, what we would do or had already done. We erected fragile monuments to ourselves, and asked others to pay their respects, perhaps even worship the idols we had carved out of thin air.
Yet, in knowing one another’s monuments to be false, and plastered with shit, we tore each other down, behind shoulders, glances, sarcastic jabs and cuts.
Danny Dazer, who you kidding, you’re not moving to Florida to work at Club Med and screw a new babe every night.
And Mike Chichamimo, we all know there is no hot girlfriend who lives in Staten Island, which is why we never see her, right, but she is real with big tits and a tongue she can’t keep out of your mouth.
We talked big because that was the racket, because we were kids on a street-corner, emotional asthmatics stealing helium from the lungs and lives of others, prospectors mining for hot air.
Tomorrow, yes, tomorrow was our ally, and we charted its petty course, full of sound and fury, our tongues turning tricks and teasing value, out of nothing at all.
Lenny Bruce, seated on a chipped wooden stool, cigarette dangling from his lips, slumping forward, shoulders slack. His mouth puckers, the cigarette jumps to attention, he draws in fiercely, then exhales a series of bluish halos that float and dissipate.
Time on his hands, balled into fists, relentless sledging of hours, Bruce has gotten good at blowing perfectly formed halos. That he sees them as halos, and not rings, says something. Continue reading →
Between dreams,
he woke to night-bells
ringing in the early morning—
the riskiest time of day.
The fog outside
his room, thick
as cat’s feet, treading
softly on his mind,
and after rubrubbing
the sheep
from his eyes, he stared
and stared
at the walls
and furniture and books
on the shelves, eventually convinced
that everything was, as he had left it,
in perfect order. It was safe to rise.
Yawning,
he decided to
make himself a cup
of nice hot tea,
and stepped out
of his closed
bedroom window
without disturbing
an inch of glass.