We enter forests
at the liminal risk
of time lost
to the vagrancies of dreaming
and silence of choir—
Engendered by echoes
and bated tense
we move on
at the mercy
of mirrorless haunt.
The branch of the tree reaching down. It reaches down to graze the time-scarred headstone, to caress it. Could this be … a secret love story, a love story with no history, or with a cortege of history, spanning many timelines and lifespans? They have found each other again. The skinny mottled limb decked out in long green perforated leaves and bright pink flowers, an asking limb, a fornicate falling limb, needing to touch the stone memorializing the person who has passed from here to there, from now to now-again (or perhaps new-again, or never-again). Let’s call it a love story, consensual, textured, tactile, unassigned, a love story ministered by the migrating wind and its featherbrush fingers. Or, perhaps, it is not the tree’s love for the spirit of one who has passed, but rather for the stone itself, love stories are hard to decipher, many existing as riddles crammed into glass bottles cast into the sea. If you notice, about a couple of feet away, there is a tiny tombstone, more than half of it concealed in the overgrown grass. The scale of the tombstone signifies that it’s the grave of a child. Does the child factor into this love story, this scene, this drama? Are we witnessing a mother, father, and child reunited? Perhaps it is the spirit of the child that has gone into the tree and is reaching down to hold and touch and reconnect with its mother, whose tombstone is the taller one. Again, many love stories remain unknown, inscrutable glyphs and sphinxes. Yet, no matter the configurations of the players, and their relationships (in this life, past lives, lives to come), they pulse in and out of time, shapeshifting to abide manifest desires.
The love hotel under the overcast afternoon sky. Thick mottled clouds. Two rabbits perched on a crescent moon, backs turned to the viewer. Earth and sky mixed, how lust has room for all seasons. The love hotel is about 100 yards away from the prison. Do barred dreams infused with lust bounce off walls and rattle cages nightly? Many fevers for many seasons. Ominous clouds, threaded and tasseled with veins of brightness, bits of light filtering by degrees within the brooding bulbs of mist. Two rabbits, snuggling side by side, one male, one female, the male bigger, the female’s head resting on the male’s shoulder, both perched piningly on a crescent moon, which, within the interior of its apex, displays a hovering heart pierced by an arrow. In the conjugal cast of the love hotel’s fast season, valentines prefer dark.
Empty streets beckon
to breed favored solitude
among vagrant dreams.
There is no journey.
Only myths in which we fit
our lust to wander.
Streets,
vivid in character,
and seeded in the calming lore
of desolation and subtext,
train the wanderer’s interest
to stop, notice, gaze
deeply at or into causes
warming us to the effects
through which we marvel, lost,
at curiously intimate lengths.
The boy sat on the train that would take him to the station where he would catch the train that would take him to the airport where he would be lifted away from everything he had been dreaming in real-time. It is hard to say goodbye. He pulled down his bucket hat, a gift from his grandmother, and stared out the window, squarely forming a portrait of the mountains in the distance, a misty blue, almost a chalky lavender in relation to the green landscape spread vibrantly before it. The sky was vapors, a gateway to vanishing, to dissolution. The boy cried. He hid his head, so no one could see. What is this feeling, he thought, this feeling of fleetingness, how everything passed so quickly into nothing, how rapidly it disappeared, when you stared out a window, a lens for a slideshow of images comprising not only scenery, but the way your memories adhered to that scenery, congealed, and became inextricably wedded to what you saw, how you perceived, in brief fleeting doses, and then gone, it sped away, fell behind, everything at the mercy of instant blurring, moments of clarity crunched into blurring, as if you were taking an unstable eye test—was the test unstable, the images, your vision … what is this feeling? Were these bladed pangs of a farewell that left a heart wounded, wandering, ponderous? The boy looked out the window and then fell asleep. I do not know what, if anything, he dreamed.
At twilight,
the softly paling
into summer
plum sky,
sliver of moon
suspended like
a bone-white boomerang
in the distance,
narrow street
courting its void
with dignity—
What kind of dream is this,
which reminds you
there is nothing to do
except savor and cherish
the lyrical lucid fragments
of this floating world,
its mysterious grammar
and subtext
in sublime accordance
with prevailing volumes
of unerring silence.
They were everywhere in the woods. Clustered in hidden batches, concealed, unseen or barely peeking out from foliage or grass, the verdant estate of jizos, some whose faces had been worn away by the elements, others with shadows and hints and suggestions of mostly vanished features, bald pates banded together describing domes in the open air, bodies half-buried in earth, stone footstools, small time-scarred guardians, a hidden population of jizos that hailed in varying shapes and sizes, some naked, some garbed in ceremonial red cloaks and bonnets, some with flattened satellite dishes for ears, some earless, groups lined up in rows, smallest to largest, an assembly of symmetry, adjacent to moss-infested headstones. This was the shrine in a remote region of woods where people prayed to jizo to heal their sick children. And for those whose children were healed, the parents or family would return with a jizo statue to add to the ever-expanding colony of jizos. A clasp-handed Buddha with closed eyes and a serene countenance presided at the entrance, right before you climbed the grass-carpeted stone steps preceding the shrine. There were also toys. Stuffed animals. Pinwheels. A dark satin rabbit lying prostrate at the feet of a band of jizos. The rabbit had flopped forward, face hidden, tips of his ears grazing the earth. Was the rabbit placed in this position of piety? Or had he bowed down of his own volition? Was this rabbit endlessly supplicating for mercy for all the lost children?
